Dreams and hope!

So I keep having these dreams; these fantastic dreams where I am a poet on a grand stage making an audience laugh and cry using nothing but my voice. I love this thought because in these dreams I am one hundred percent exposed and vulnerable. I love this thought because in these dreams I am completely untouchable. I love this thought because in these dreams I am able to be me. But then I wake up to the warm yellow sun pouring through my bland brown curtains and I am back to normal. In these dreams I also am in love with a beautiful woman who inspires me to be a better person. But when I wake up the pillow is the only thing I am lying next to.

I think these are a reflection of hope. I hope to one day be someone who is open, honest, vulnerable, loved, and most of all able to affect other people. I have reverted back to a previous notion of what a man should be over this last year, and I think that while these dreams are a sign of hope of what I will become I also think they are a sign of what I already have become. For one thing, I am far more honest and open now than I ever was in my life previously. I have a capacity for love now that runs deeper than any ocean trench, which burns with more fire than any star in the universe. I am more willing to open up to strangers and trust that they will return my honesty with respect. I have also become quite capable at being myself as of late.

So that means I only have two goals left in my dreams, I hope to be loved and I hope to change the world around me for better. I think I am on the right path for the former. Being able to be honest and open, forthright even, is the first step. I also love myself which is more important than most anyone who falls in love young is willing to admit. But to change the world around me… now that is an adventure! I am envisioning myself as a pirate on the front rails of a ship as it rides over the crests of a wave! Or maybe an astronaut taking the first steps on a distant planet! YES! I love the dreams I am having. I may never end up on the main stage of a poetry tour for writing in verse. I may never change the world and steer it away from the path of evil. But I think with this hopeful dream like state I currently inhabit, I will one day soon be able to affect the world for good :-D.